Pretending

Hey you there. How are you? Where are you? What are you doing?
Today i made an account of a application and use it for my things. Then i found your older sister's account. I opened it and i found your photos there. What a cute photos of you three. I love it!

Then i found an account of a girl who likes you. I scrolled it down and i found a photo that made me remember all the s*ck thing had ever happened at that time. My friend who likes you, lied to me. You two did lie to me. Then i felt like mad at you for a while. But i know it has been passed.

Suddenly i feel like different. Bad different in me.
I'm good at pretending. Also good at hiding my feelings.
Maybe i could act like i don't care and walk pass you without looking at you or smiling at you. But all you have to know is i'm dying inside.

Did you think i hate you? You're wrong. Did you think i don't want to talk to you anymore? You're wrong again. Did you think i wanna replace you? You're absolutely wrong. Did you think i mad at you? You're almost right. Did you think you make me disappointed? Yes, you're right.

Do you know it always hurt me?
The truth… No, i can't do it. And never can be. You will never understand how i can do that ⎯Pretending⎯ for all this time. Maybe sometimes i feel like wanna give up. But then i always remember my reason is why do i holding on for the long time.

But there's time i can't resist that feeling anymore. And i son't care if you don't feel the way i do. I admit it, i miss you so badly.
I feel like want to run up to you, hug you and never let you go.